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Misunderstandings Suck
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Why do I care so much?

I don't know, but I do. And she won't believe me. And that just hurts more, because I do care. If I didn't care, this wouldn't hurt! If I was a bad person, I wouldn't be so distraught over this. If I wanted to hurt her, I would feel accomplished rather than sorry.

But no matter what I say, she's convinced of... I don't even know... everything negative a person could possibly feel towards another person. And all because of a stupid misunderstanding I can't clear up.

What hurts more than the result of such a misunderstanding? When she puts in a last word, says bye, and signs off. Clearly she has no desire to resolve any of this, and that hurts even more.

Now, to me, it will never be resolved.

People who lost loved ones in disasters like the Oklahoma City bombing and September 11th are forced to live without resolve or closure. Nobody should have to be put through that. But it's even more absurd when the lack of resolve and closure is between two people who are still alive and perfectly capable of working things out, just one of them doesn't want to. That takes a total lack of sensibility I just can't fathom.

Never before have I enjoyed talking to someone on the phone so much. Never before have I felt so comfortable in conversation. Never before could I have imagined that a person who could experience all that with me could just leave it all behind like it meant nothing at all.

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I'm so sorry to hear of your troubles. That sounds like a terrible situation. I hope that she comes around.

Thanks.

I'm not sure I do though... it seems like the the closer we get, the more she'll be able to hurt me. Maybe it's better to just let her go, since that seems to be what she wants.

The truth is unfolded. I knew that crazy stunt you pulled on me had NOTHING to do with me. I'm glad I read this.

This happened after the so-called "stunt".

I think this is crap, because it did happen before our conversation on the phone. Anyways - as I said, I have nothing more to say. Bye.

It did not! The stuff I'm talking about in this post happened AFTER my phone call with you.

If you'd care to listen, you'd hear the truth.

But the way my life is going lately, nobody will listen, so there's no point in my talking.

If I believed what you believe, I'd be speechless too, because it's absurd.

But since I know the truth and you won't believe it, all I can do is sit in agony, helpless to save you from being hurt by events that never even happened.

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